Third Thought Today...

I write to you and this is the third task yet on my day as I start it slowly. I woke up around an hour ago or even less, prayed, made myself a mask and applied it on my face, and here I am writing to you… I am thinking of developing the films some time today, yet I feel as though I will be taking beautiful photos today and would like to include them in my album very soon. I have a love for photos, it is as though I want to capture the prettiest photos, ones with so much love and laughter, and pile them up in albums so that whenever my children or anyone else skims through the albums, sees how happy we were, are, will ever be, how loving we are, and how beautiful our souls look on printed paper…

I can't wait to see your baby! You will have so much love, you can't even imagine yet, I was reading about pregnancy, birth and motherhood a while ago, and the miracles of this life transforming event are so many, you can't seem to put a finger on one single miracle and call it the best or the biggest!

The article goes on about how when you give birth, Allah sbhanah invests a pound of love and patience that only you have, and the naughtier your child the more love and patience invested in your heart, so even your emotions during birth and after are customized to suit you, your baby, and your life style and consequences!! Can you imagine?!? I think this is also why some women cannot bear the thought of having a disabled child, whilst others accept it very quickly and carry on loving their child as the only child available on the face of earth… I believe that our souls are customized to suit what is bound to happen to us by fate, faith, and hope… what is written in scripts in the seven skies, what is written on our tiny foreheads, what is to come, go and remain with us… everything is written, maybe a few things aren't, so that we would blindly feel that we have control or so… control I believe, is not as important as acceptance… I would rather have acceptance than control, because if I cannot accept, I'll go trying my best to control life from changing, control time from passing, control my life events from folding in the other direction… that’s just ridiculous, I would rather live, than control… and to live, you have to believe in the mighty powerful Allah, who has all the plan ready for you, so you just accept what comes your way and try to live a peaceful life, peace with yourself, peace with others, peace with the world as a whole…